[For you stranger]

Hey
I'm your life
I'm the one who takes you there
I'm your life
I'm the one who cares
they
they betray
I'm your only true friend now
they
they'll betray
I'm forever there

I'm your dream, make you real
I'm your eyes when you must steal
I'm your pain when you can't feel
sad but true
I'm your dream, mind astray
I'm your eyes while you're away
I'm your pain while you repay
you know it's sad but true

you
you're my mask
you're my cover, my shelter
you
you're my mask
you're the one who's blamed

do
do my work
do my dirty work, scapegoat
do
do my deeds
for you're the one who's shamed

I'm your dream, make you real
I'm your eyes when you must steal
I'm your pain when you can't feel
sad but true
I'm your dream, mind astray
I'm your eyes while you're away
I'm your pain while you repay
you know it's sad but true

hate
I'm your hate
I'm your hate when you want love
pay
pay the price
pay, for nothing's fair

hey
I'm your life
I'm the one who took you here
hey
I'm your life
and I no longer care

I'm your dream, make you real
I'm your eyes when you must steal
I'm your pain when you can't feel
sad but true
I'm your truth, telling lies
I'm your reasoned alibis
I'm inside open your eyes
I'm you
sad but true

In Remembrance

Publish Post

[This one is to us, to the trio, to my days of running wild, with the two nuttiest, freakiest souls I know. One was the leopardess, the other a doe. And they made me into what I am today. They freed me from myself and from my fears. I love you guyz.]

Muffled giggles

Cream bun crumbs

Last bench scribbles

Playing the dunce

Dancing moods

Wayward ways

Oaths of sisterhood

Shoplifting days

Healing hearts

Late-night chats

Denim skirts

Stuck up brats

Classes skipped

Autumn songs

High school trip

Rights and wrongs

Random hugs

Fighting the fears

Fire and bugs

Smiles and tears

Partners in crime

Wishful sleepovers

One eternal time

“Sisters Forever”

Urrghhh…. My luck shouldn’t run out always. Why why WHY?? How would it friggin matter to you to give me a chance? I need it more than anybody else. I need it to the point of desperation that it’s become a matter of life and death to me now. I’m so fuckin’ sick of all of it. I swear I wanna end this saga now. I will end it, one way or the other. I don’t care how bloody frustrated I sound. It’s been just too-effing-long. There’s supposed to be a limit to everything for crying out loud, even to your cruelty. I keep on dreaming the same stuff over and over again. I want them to come true. They have to come true, so that I can build new castles in my air.

To top it all my jealousy is chewing me up completely from within. I wish I were “them”. I wish I had THIS life as easy as “they” did. No way have I screwed up that much that I deserve this. It’s like I messed around a li’l bit, then life, in its non-stop drive to have the last laugh, is messing me up a lot more. It’s like I slap a guy for not making a pass at me, and then he chops off my limbs. Wtf!!

Talk about feeling suicidal! That’s sorta my middle name now. Actually more like my first name. The only emotion I’m aware of in a strong way. What’s the point? Let’s take a short cut and make things better. Take the easier road. We all gotta go there in the end , right? The only reason I’m still holding on is curiosity. Let’s see how much further into hell I can make it.

People don’t need friends. Well maybe they do. But more than that we need strangers. Strangers, who have like zero expectations. Strangers, who believe what you show them. Strangers, who forget about you instantly and don’t stay up half the night wondering what a freakin' bitch you are. Its so much easier opening up to strangers. They aren’t shocked, they aren’t disappointed, they don’t go, “That’s so not like you”, like our best friends do. Ha! As if they knew! I have looked so long for a friend for THAT side of me. But now I don’t even care. I think I have a stranger. =)