Yes I don't know what I want. I don't know how i feel. The person I trust the least is me myself. But you know what, I 'd take this life any day. I like not knowing what's coming tomorrow. I like knowing that life can't get any worse, its only gonna get better. Some bigshot once said that life is not a destination, its a journey. So I'd rather stretch out my journey as much as I can, because once you are at your goal, where do you go from there?