Stranded. That's all i feel right now. Stranded and blinded. No idea where to head from here. So I'll probably grapple at every other thing, at every other person; just to prove to myself that no, I have not been marooned alone in an island.

I really doubt it now; that if I had a time machine I would go back and do it all over again. Would I? I seriously don't know. Get me the time machine and we'll see. It has to be a spontaneous decision I guess. But the time machine, really need it.

I wish I was programmable.