For ages I have been trying to live upto people’s expectations. It just aint working anymore. Family, friends, society. When can I start being the real me? According to mom, financial security is the fastest and sole key to self-independence. But whatever she says I know for sure that I wont ever be able to get out of the burdens of her aspirations. Did I ever really want to be an engineer? Never. Then what the hell am I doing? I have sacrificed my whole life for your happiness, ma. Though I’m not sure anymore that whether it was what you wanted out of me or what u wanted to prove to other people about me. It would be so much better if you had just accepted this moronic daughter of yours just the way she is. Sometimes I feel that maybe you did the right thing, but at the end of the day I have to come to terms with the fact that my true calling lies somewhere else. And I’m yet to discover it. But nevertheless even after my series of failures at every field I cannot but help being ecstatic. Though I don’t have any reason to but still i feel special. I know I’m God’s favorite child and that’s not going to change ever. He’s shown me the beauties of the world, I can proudly say that I have lived my life. I’m not part of a rat-race and never will be. I’ll attain success on my own free-terms, and that success will be of my own; no one will be able to take it away from me.

Few hard facts..jus gotta come to terms with-

1. You are not a writer (sob!!)…oh but I so wanna be one!!!

2. Need to work on your looks…hightime!!!

3. Get a decent wardrobe for God’s sake!!! And throw out all the junk.

4. Engineering may not be your thing.. But then you are not givin’ it your 100% are u?

5. They are your friends. No, you cannot treat them like shit.

6. DIET, you pregnant bitch!!

7. Hot chocolate isn’t all that great K

8. You’re kinda dumb!! (big surprise!!)

9. You’re great at pretending to be smart though.

10. You are not at all a good person.

wot to write????

I kept my promise...I didnt think of you.
but I broke my heart in my deliberation
I want to love your sparkling eyes
I want to hold your hand really tight
I want to kiss your tousled hairs
I want to own you tonight
We talk in dreams everynight
But still I feel something's not right
You dont sound as desparate as me
You dont feel as faithless as me
You dont clinge at me any longer
You dont hold me tightly enough
I wont take it any more
The memories are too sweet to ruin
I wont wait any more
I refuse to take the pain
I wont listen anymore




I wont call anymore

I'm feeling like a lame guinea pig :-(

Baby u r....

my sunny sky

my favorite high

my sweetest gift

my emotional lift

my best friend

until the end

my destination

my inspiration

my shining light

my day n night

my heart healer

my anger chiller

my pain reliever

my spring fever

my first love

my gift from above

my gem so rare

my answered prayer

my heart n soul

my life made whole

my morning sun

my evening fun

my energizer

my tranquilizer

my source of laughter

my everafter

my burning fire

my heart's desire

my soulmate

my true fate

my summer rain

my end of pain

my winter sunshine

till the end of time...I LOVE U

(Not an original....found it in a book...)

5 Things To Learn Before I Die

Have to learn how to forgive.

Have to learn how to forget the past.

Have to learn to let go of all the dreams that didn’t come true.

Have to learn to trust again

Have to learn to move on